well I thought maybe I should update. . . mostly cause I have nothing better to do and because I was reading a friends updated journal about posers and life and stuff and (of course) it got me thinking. . .so here goes a tiny rant:

Life sucks. Plain and clear. But everday we have to get up in the morning and go through a day and then everynight we go back to sleep just to get up again in the morning and do it all over again. Purpose? To live. To live up to your fullest. To overcome obsticles and to achieve goals. To find happines. And when all is achieved and overcome what happens? Death. The eternal slumber. Some say a new life begins. Some say there is another world waiting where there is no death but only bliss. But some people have doubts. No one should be blamed for this and no one should be ridiculed. Its not a bad thing to doubt. It's scary. Scary as all hell. after your heart stops beating, when your lungs stop breathing in the fresh air that is essential for life. And then the mind stops. And all stops. And all is black. Then nothing happens. It just stops. No more thought. No more world. Nothing. If there is nothing after, no other world or rebirth, then why would you not want to live life to its fullest? Take risks, take chances, make your path, make your mark. I want to be remebered, not just remembered by my friends and family because that will eventually fade. And once the memory of you is dead then your really gone. Nothing is left. I want to make my mark, I want to be remembered. I want to change even just a little part of this world. Life will take its toll on me and I will show the world how it has changed me from childhood to the years of my old age. I will live my life and proudly claim it as my own. So I will get up each morning and sleep each night, but in between I'll be changing, growing, and living. Maybe life doesn't suck as much as we all think.